what if.

DAMN MONDAY ): // Monday, November 30, 2009

9:47 PM

WOOOOOTS. MY NOSE IS KILLING MEEEEE ~ gosh! this is HORRIBLEEEEE ~ Like my brain juice leaking from my NOSE D: (for Andrew's info this is the 'AHHHH/ROAR/UPSET' face) Today was a super short day cos I left school early .. And that uncle Andrew still sleeps like a log despite me calling a couple of times *ROLL EYES

Started off the first meeting quiet but tried to help with the worksheet before I left. Headed over to CGH but felt it was damn early so i dropped by CS to montip and got myself a RIBBON rubber band again .. Lost the brown one I bought earlier ): Took bus10 to CGH and waited for my appt. Went to TM to meet Jasmine aftermath to slack a little & today I had my shaker fries again together with Double Chocolate Frappes (double heaty) but *THUMBS UP! Walked around CS and bought a tube bra using the voucher. I was thinking if I don't use it, I'll probably be leaving it in my wallet till it expires and become a waste paper so I decided to use it :DD WISE choice hoh!?

Window shopped and SAW truck loads of things I wanna buy!): WORK WORK WORK for MOOLAH! AIMING a "cheongsam" style top to wear during Chinese New Year (: LOVE IT MANY MANY esp the one with lace! Gonna get Jasmine to get a similar one together :D Saw a super nice bottom and a shoe from mondo! GOSHGOSH. I'm so dead! HOW TO SAVE MONEY LIDDAT!?): HOW HOW HOW!? This three are the MUST GETS!

Am so gonna watch couples retreat by THIS week D:

did my quiz, rj and evaluation. Think I did super horrible since I left school early D: okay ah. finished and camwhored la can!? ahahas~ so yeah. That should end my BORING Monday & tml will be another day .. TML I HAVE TO WORK ): BOOHOOOOO ~ Shall update again tml if I have the time. TOODLES ♥

SEE SEE the ribbon rubber band I bought @$2.90 (?)

OVERDUE PICTURES

It was HOODY day:D

♥ LOVER

YUMMY GELARE WAFFLE ICE CREAM :DDDD

notice the cup in her hoody?

saw this undies @E2 Lingerie

I wonder whats the purpose for this with a RING below (?)

PUNICCO.BS

ah ben asked to help so yeah ..

looking for Korea accessories,

check this out, you may find something you want!

I think I'm being SO kind

*roll eyes*

Labels: afraid, worries

// Sunday, November 29, 2009

4:21 PM

well, find someone who can do this (...)
and call them your best friend.
You don't have to only have one cos it can come in a bunch (:

Okays. Finally, I'm done with the thingy that I've been doing since yesterday .. But still that is only a draft .. Changes may be made. Spend my weekends lazing at home since last weekend I was out kinda late .. I've just updated my movie list. SO MANY MOVIES TO WATCH, I'm guessing that there will be some I won't be able to catch. Especially when I'm starting to go back TRU for I think 2weeks or more. Cos its XMAS SEASON NOW. They'll definitely need people & since I need moolah to enjoy my holidays, I'D better go to WORK D:

白发魔女传 is indeed a nice show (: The show just ended! and now I have nothing to do already. Guess I'm going to sleep D: Thinking of how I should settle my dinner later D: Tml's monday, there's school and appointment. Next week is gonna be looooooong week for me .. Think is shall end here for now. Shall update if I'm bored later at night(:

TOODLES ♥

Now that I looked back,
when you havent been replying and contacting,
I should have ceased believing in you ..
But now, I'll remember to tell myself to cease if my brain tells me to.
I hope my heart would listen ...
♥

1:12 AM

Woke up at ard 9AM (was suppose to meet Meiqi and Wanting for topone) but I went back to sleep after I texted Meiqi and Wanting that I'm too tired and lazy to meet them ... Guess wanting felt the same cos she was DAMN HAPPY when she read my message :D && Lucky Meiqi haven't bath if not she'll be so mad at meeee D:

Woke up for brunch with my mumsy and brother .. Came back and used lappy (guess I've been using the WHOLE of today) completed something & I hope I've did a good job. Will only post it up when the time is right (: Apart from that, I've been youtubing, facebooking, looking for pictures and quotes :DD Headed to meet TW and JW for dinner at 201 .. Satisfy my cravings for STINGRAY AND SHAKER FRIES & gelt so happy on the way home ! Came home and continue using my lappy and now, I'm having a stiff shoulder! TML WILL BE ANOTHER LAZY DAY FOR MEEEE D: Must remember that I HAVE WORK ON TUESDAY, THURSDAY AND SATURDAY! =O urghhh! ohoh ~ and there's KELVIN'S CHALET ON FRIDAY && QUN'S bday celebration @ St.James D: GOSHHHHHHH~ I'M SO BROKE CAN!? ):

Guess I'm gonna go off to bed now. SO SLEEEEEEPY but before I sleeeep, SHALL GO HAVE A SHOWERRR :DDD

POSTED SOME VIDEOS FROM YOUTUBE THAT I LOVEEEE
<333

ENJOY :DDD

LOVE THIS KIND OF MUSIC! :DDD

ADMIRE ANYONE WHO CAN PLAY THIS PIECE ON THE PIANO!

// Thursday, November 26, 2009

8:56 PM

WOOOTS. haven't been updating lately.YAY tml is a holiday, BOO have to go for the NHB thingy till 7PM .. There goes my satuday to 2 or less CE points .. But ohwel, already sign up already. NO CHOICE .. Been catching many movies recently :DDD MOVIE-HOLIC & there're more I wanna watch .. One thing I don't understand. WHY DO PEOPLE FEEL EMBARRASED WHEN THEY FART IN PUBLIC? LOL* indoctrination I guess. *teehee, frankly speaking, i let out a kinda loud *PEEP* just now but gosh, no one hear me! (don't know if its real or they just trying to save my face) But whatever it is. Felt NICE letting it out la. Anyway it doesn't smell what! *Laughs. Currently at Woodlands NLB "chilling" *Laughs & I'm thinking where I should go after the NHB event tml .. *Hmmmmm

Watched this three movies + xmas carols over the week and my fav is still 2012 ..
Wanted to catch Astro boy, but NO MORE ALREADY ))):

A few movies that I want to watch (:

The princess and the frog
Don't look back
Storm Warriors
Mulan
Zombieland
Case39

got to watch aHhHHHHH~
Shall update my movie list sooooon, (later?)

Alright, I got to go already =B
library closinggggggg ~
*roll eyes. Time to head hooooooomeeee ~

RANDOM MUCH!? // Wednesday, November 25, 2009

12:49 AM

are you READY to do what you've never done?

Been very long since the last time I chatted with Meiqi. Had a small chat with her about trust.. Expected, she's one of my many friends who tell me to TRUST only myself and my parents and I guess, I could only agree with it .. Meiqi asked me where is my straight-forwardness, and I couldn't find an answer to her question .. Not now, but I guess I'll find it soon ..

Never ever love someone more than he loves you. If that's the case, you don't
have to carry on anymore, this is because if you're going to carry on, u're
going to be the one losing.

Somehow I realised, that when girls show that they've loved too much. Its game over for them. One thing I believe is that when girls starts to devote too much in a relationship, they will do whatever it takes to sustain it .. That's when girls can come out with many "extra" actions, thats when girls become scary and fake or starts to grip on too tight. Isn't it? Maybe, I'll put it this way .. If you are in the game called L O V E, are you ready to lose? Its not about not wanting to be the one losing .. Its whether or not it is worth losing, it is whether or not it is worth the pain you might go through. Right?

Trust? This is the biggest word that has ever come into my life. Even bigger than anything else. Am I just stupid because I trust too easily? or is it just because I trust too easily, thats why I am stupid? There's a difference, right? Yes, I know I am very defensive now .. But, I'm just very scare of falling too hard? Cos it does hurt to know that the person you thought you can trust actually hide things from you .. The time to get over it really suck big time .. I know I can, but I just want to void anything like that. Too foolish?Stupid?Naivé?Silly? I think I am little of all ... Once biten, twice shy. Hence, I'll have to learn to trust, step out of my comfort zone or maybe, I never will try to trust anyone except myself .. So that I don't have to worry, don't have to be afraid.

Sometimes it's hard to control urself from falling, but think again, before you
fall, take a step back. No matter how hard is it, no matter you resort to which
ever ways, Don't ever fall into the trap. (: Because if you're going to fall,
you will be the one losing out.

At times, I fall unknowingly. I don't even have the time to react, to think let alone the time to step back .. Again, it is whether or not it is worth losing, worth hurting .. Maybe I am really stupid because despite so many telling the same thing ... .... .. .....

Alright. Meiqi dedicated her post to ME *Laughs. Thanks sweetie :D but ohwel .. Its always running in my brain but still. My heart knows best what I wants even if my brain tells me its wrong .. So there's like nothing much I can do about it I guess ..

Wore formal to school today .. Felt a little uncomfortable, but not as uncomfortable as sem1. I have no idea why either. Its almost 1AM and I'm still wide awake blogging away .. Tml MATH module SOMEMORE! Boohoooo~ But YAY to one thing. I can finally GET BACK MY FUJITSU LAPPY TML! SO HAPPY AND EXCITED !(: Can't wait to get it back! Alright. Stayed back in school to so call STUDY for maths. But ohwel, as usual I facebooked and Twit so much. I only research on tml's topic. Hope it will at least help a little. I shall end here already & I'm going off to bed .. night night

Toodles
xoxo

P.S I wanna watch COUPLES RETREAT!:DD

Labels: TRUST MUCH?

// Sunday, November 22, 2009

3:38 AM

went Ehub to watch Christmas Carols today(: I fell asleep on a certain part where lots of taking was going on, partly because it was a midnight show and I was dressed in my "PJs" and i felt so COMFORTABLE that I slept :DD But still, I feel it was a nice movie!(: Of course not as nice as others. But yeah. I love the not so cartoon, cartoon characters .. They looked kinda real .. Story line was not very exciting though ..

walked home from Ehub feeling super satisfied when I reached home ! Felt like I just exercised & I saved up money cos I didn't cab home *Pat on my shoulder! I'm wondering if I should get an iPhone, maybe I'll ask my brother about it .. But, tml is the last day .. SO i have to decide fast ! (though I have this feeling I wont be able to get it tml *sniffs) Tml is Sunday already.. Wants to watch Raging Phoenix (its gonna be damn nice) tml !! Mixture of B.B dance and martial arts :DD Gonna catch Astro boy on monday instead since I didn't manage to catch it today..

alright, guess I'm gonna tucj into bed now(: goodnight!

// Saturday, November 21, 2009

2:52 AM

Happy Birthday Hanlin(:

Think again (...)

Friday was not as BAD as I thought. But I didn't manage to watch a movie though .. Hang out with wanting and weiyun @Library after the Narpani dinner. Played Wii (Y) and did RJ in the library before wanting and I left at 9PM to CWP for ice-cream .. talktalk and showed her my sec2 diary (i see already also shake head ah) *Laughs. I still remember how I spell certain words. Its so embarassing D: but anyways. It was great just hanging out in the library, playing Wii with lovers (Y) Anw, I didn't do the Cog quiz at all .. NO heart to do ah. So I just left it unopened D:

ohyesh! There's this song that was introduced by Weiyun Loves. Super love the meaning of the song and and and, the Taeyang dance is super *THUMBS UP YO! anyway, enjoy the video(:

*Wedding dress*

I would argue

Then you would cry

As you're struggling, I would only get stronger

My heartaches behind these shadows

My face brightens up as I see your smile

I worry that you might notice my feelings

And I get scared that the gap between us would widen

I hold my breath

Then I bite my lips

Then I pray that she would leave him.

Once the music ends, you'll be with him forever

I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn't come

The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings

I despited you so much

So much, to the point I sometimes would wish a misfortune upon you

But now, my eyes are dry

Now I am talking to myself, it must be an old habbit

Every night I would look at myself

And wonder how it turned out like this

I would close my eyes

Then I dream an endless dream

Then I pray she would leave him.

By all means, be happy with him

So I can move on

Please erase me out of your heart

Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I've been living the lies for too long

Yet, she would look at me and smile.

CREDITS

BKJSuh @ soompi for the TRANSLATIONS Lyrics

http://innercharm.blogspot.com/2009/11/taeyang-wedding-dress-lyrics-with.html

// Friday, November 20, 2009

2:29 PM

I MUST NOT BE LATE FOR SCHOOL ANYMORE!

DANGGG ~

I realised, starting this Y1S2, I HAVE PROBLEM WAKING UP EARLY and I'm always late for school ): all the red wordings beside my daily grades are seriously f.ugly =/ no point getting good grades . Cos it'll be downgraded lehs. SIANNED * I shall make an effort to start reaching school early starting next week :D Lets see if I'll be able to make it ..

AM STLL THINKING WHEN I CAN GET BACK MY LAPPY! DD:

Having 3rd meeting now, and something funny but not so funny thing happened. Classmates actually had a race just to see which group should go 3RD . We were so noisy outside class that one angmoh faci from another class, I think from E37K came to our class and comment on our noise level. I didn't even know he walked and in. I was too engrossed on the net listening to music :D *Laughs.

That uncle Andrew, make me call him 28 times and he didnt wake up at all ! REALLY MAN! He sleep like a dead log ! D: DULANS. called him at 8.15AM already. then he go back to sleep again! ZOMG ! D: I give up ah! Thinking of ideas to make him freaking wake up from his damn sleep ..

Today's problem is kinda easy. But I feel our presentation like not very solid lehs. After listening to other team's presentation .. They're really good :D hmmm. Should I go for movies later? I can't make decision sia. Oh, there's Narpani dinner later .. Wonder how it would be like *hmmmm ~ Shall update again later in the night if I have anything to update (:

toodles for now

xoxo (Y)

// Thursday, November 19, 2009

11:49 PM

I'm NO SUPERWOMAN neither am I SUPERMAN ..

I get tired of whats going on around me .

And sometimes, it just really turns me off.

Don't even have that little force pushing me to work to it ...

Am just giving up I guess.
NOT EMO, but just tired la

Tired of making decisions. SO, I shall not make anymore decisions and I am not getting a life either! I seriously need to WORK FOR MOOLAH before I can even enjoy life .. Needs to be more sensitive, need to prioritise whats more important for me now, need to prioritise what should come first and who should come first D: Need to sit down quietly and start planning, start thinking and start acting out to my plans and not just plan for the sake of planning .. But it seems like its a difficult task for someone who is super BUANG about what her life is all about .

Dont ask me what kind of person I think I am. Seriously, I don't know either. I have no identity. I don't know about my characteristics, personality and my wants and dislikes. I don't ven know myself so of course, it pisses me till no end when you act like you know me well when you know you really dont .. When you and I do not meet ery often and we seldom communicate at all . Or say like you know whats on my mind when you really don't .. URGHHH~RANTINGS &RANTINGS. I'll never get enough of this ! D: But ohwel. WHATEVER ~

Really need to make time for work .. Got a crazy idea of changing my PHONE .. I need to work work work .. Cos I want to change a bloody phone (maybe soon, I'll forget about changing a phone) Unpredictable. Club tml? feeling like a good girl and feeling LAZY too .. BUT, am I missing out F U N !? *Laughs

Need to put a little focus on my studies too .. Feeling S L E E P Y already.

NIGHT; Blackberry storm?Blackberry bold?

// Tuesday, November 17, 2009

3:04 PM

OHMYGOSH.
another VERY sad video cry like mad ah, please!
Prepare tissue before you watch hoh!

Having entrepreneurship today. I have no idea why everytime it comes to this module, I'll be super STRESSED ): maybe because of the Business Idea ah .. Or I am really not the entrepreneur type of person :D Sibei siannnnned ah. Tummy feeling weird lehs ): && I'm effing broke after buying my med .. Spent like 81bucks on them BUT its worth it :D I can't wait to WATCH MOVIE LARH *Roll eyes! People already finish watching so many that I want to watch BUT I haven't even watch ONE sia. PEKCEK!

Butterfact this saturday? See gt moolah not lohs :DDD

// Sunday, November 15, 2009

5:17 PM

I NEED TO STAY FOCUSED! D:

SUNDAY @ HOME (: Went for lunch at BBQ Chicken at T1 just now with Mumsy and Bro .. Today, they're a lil screwed up today .. No idea why, got orders wrong, drinks and soups tasted weird ( even from the next table, not just our table) tea not hot at all, chicken was not fully cooked, fries overcooked etc .. Bro said something to me before leaving. "Next time, PLEASE don't suggest to eat here." I just laughed at shake my head .. Guess he wasn't happy that the Mashed Potatoe wasn't hot at all! and they got his order wrong TWICE but he just stick to the second WRONGED order *Shakes Head* .. During weekdays, they would perform better lehs .... But wonder whats wrong today.

Anyway, came across this video (super touching) MUST WATCH !!
for those who cry easily, preapre tissue ah!

// Saturday, November 14, 2009

6:59 PM

Narpani's Pictures as promised.
Not alot, but quite afew of camwhores D:
Didn't really walk around Jurong Birdpark,
so only managed to take some birdy pictures.

Took this picture becos I found my cam (I almost lost it)
WANTING SPOILER!
Don't wanna take together ):

Sleepyhead of the day :D
Jerome Chew

OK!
Jay tried to make me feel Happier by making me feel taller for ONCE
Mission accomplished, I WAS HAPPY :DD

<33

This are the MINE MINE MINE in Finding Nemo :DD

I bet you've never seen as much as me !
(get it?)

Yummy DONUTS :DD

Journey back to the EAST from the WEST was
(________)
no words to describe D:

okays. Today was a boring Saturday for me .. Woke up and went for brunch with my family. Came home, rot a little before I start my revision for my Monday's Financial Accounting UT. I'm so gonna buck up for Math !): Don't want Monday to come cos I hate going to school! ): And now, I'm blogging to kill time. BORING ISN'T? OKAYS. I have nothing to continue. So I shall end here and listen to my fav song(s) ..

TOODLES