Okay. Like only now, i finally have a wee little mood to blog .. Well, not gonna be better i guess cos there's still hell lot of pain in my heart .. I really feel the heartache, and thus hating myself more and more .. sometimes, i don't know what the fuck I'm doing either and i somehow feel ima super eyesore to people.FCUKED this feeling, i just cant get this outta my mind. FUCKFUCKFUCK ! hoping to feel better after posting this super explicit post, FULL of vulgarities ..[pardon me]

things [obviously] didn't went well today .. it started off alright, but in between Chem. IT WAS HELL ! i swear its fucking annoying and pissing !! THIS is when I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. But for goodness sake, can someone just BRAIN WASH ME ?! wash away the UNHAPPY THINGS that happened today?! i just don't feel like moving on, and there's this fucking "thing" making me feel so damn fucking awkward ! I FEEL SUPER LOUSY NOW. I feel ima super LOUSY friend, LOUSY girlfriend, LOUSY student that have LOUSY attitude, LOUSY mentality, GOD DAMN STUPID LOUSY brain .. Fucking lousy la. nabeiccb ! FUCK LA!