Been very long since the last time I chatted with Meiqi. Had a small chat with her about trust.. Expected, she's one of my many friends who tell me to TRUST only myself and my parents and I guess, I could only agree with it .. Meiqi asked me where is my straight-forwardness, and I couldn't find an answer to her question .. Not now, but I guess I'll find it soon ..

Never ever love someone more than he loves you. If that's the case, you don't
have to carry on anymore, this is because if you're going to carry on, u're
going to be the one losing.

Somehow I realised, that when girls show that they've loved too much. Its game over for them. One thing I believe is that when girls starts to devote too much in a relationship, they will do whatever it takes to sustain it .. That's when girls can come out with many "extra" actions, thats when girls become scary and fake or starts to grip on too tight. Isn't it? Maybe, I'll put it this way .. If you are in the game called L O V E, are you ready to lose? Its not about not wanting to be the one losing .. Its whether or not it is worth losing, it is whether or not it is worth the pain you might go through. Right?


Trust? This is the biggest word that has ever come into my life. Even bigger than anything else. Am I just stupid because I trust too easily? or is it just because I trust too easily, thats why I am stupid? There's a difference, right? Yes, I know I am very defensive now .. But, I'm just very scare of falling too hard? Cos it does hurt to know that the person you thought you can trust actually hide things from you .. The time to get over it really suck big time .. I know I can, but I just want to void anything like that. Too foolish?Stupid?Naivé?Silly? I think I am little of all ... Once biten, twice shy. Hence, I'll have to learn to trust, step out of my comfort zone or maybe, I never will try to trust anyone except myself .. So that I don't have to worry, don't have to be afraid.

Sometimes it's hard to control urself from falling, but think again, before you
fall, take a step back. No matter how hard is it, no matter you resort to which
ever ways, Don't ever fall into the trap. (: Because if you're going to fall,
you will be the one losing out.

At times, I fall unknowingly. I don't even have the time to react, to think let alone the time to step back .. Again, it is whether or not it is worth losing, worth hurting .. Maybe I am really stupid because despite so many telling the same thing ... .... .. .....


Alright. Meiqi dedicated her post to ME *Laughs. Thanks sweetie :D but ohwel .. Its always running in my brain but still. My heart knows best what I wants even if my brain tells me its wrong .. So there's like nothing much I can do about it I guess ..


Wore formal to school today .. Felt a little uncomfortable, but not as uncomfortable as sem1. I have no idea why either. Its almost 1AM and I'm still wide awake blogging away .. Tml MATH module SOMEMORE! Boohoooo~ But YAY to one thing. I can finally GET BACK MY FUJITSU LAPPY TML! SO HAPPY AND EXCITED !(: Can't wait to get it back! Alright. Stayed back in school to so call STUDY for maths. But ohwel, as usual I facebooked and Twit so much. I only research on tml's topic. Hope it will at least help a little. I shall end here already & I'm going off to bed .. night night


Toodles
xoxo


P.S I wanna watch COUPLES RETREAT!:DD

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