what if.

my recent thoughts. // Monday, July 4, 2011

11:38 PM

when you cant send me home, I understand ..

when you just don't want to hear me, I understand ..

when you do not have time for me, I understand ..

when I stopped giving in, I believe its time you understand.

I really wished that everytime I walked out the door, you would hold me back.

everytime you told me how much you want me to stay by your side at night.

but when i stayed over, what were you doing ?

serving the net, reading forums, playing ps3, doing your own stuffs ..

what was i doing ?

I tried talking to you,

asking you what you reading,

trying to have a conversation on what you are doing.

but than again, you ignore me

& say that I shouldn't talk to you when obviously you are doing something

and knowing that you cannot multitask ..

you aint happy at all.

you're not nervous at all.

you don't care at all.

i hate to be the only one who care.

im tired of being the only one who cared.

I miss those days where you would hug me so tight,

I could feel that I matter so much to you .

but now, its a whole different thing.

I admit I have always been the one who wanna end the relationship ..

but have you ever made me feel that you wanna save it ?

i knew from the bottom of my heart, i didn't want us to end up this way ..

I knew right from the bottom of my heart that it was just duplicity.

but it somehow showed me truly where I stood in your heart.

This time, I told myself to be firm ...

When someone promises you that they'd be there for you no matter what happens,

it doesn't mean you can take them for granted and still expects them to stick with you.