here it comes. the kick to EMO again ..

as I was blog hopping around. Thoughts came into my mind again .. I see many people being together, breaking apart and getting together again with another one. Some last for so long like 2years or even more. Then I think .. Are they really ready for even more? Do they know whats the meaning of being together? Is it just that simple or is it too complicated people pretend not to see the complicated side and enjoy the time they have together? So many questions but I know, NO ONE can give the right answer. Reason being, no one knows exactly .. No one actually understands. I DON'T . Maybe there isn't an answer to this at all ..

My mum asked me a good question. What if I was given away when I was young, so young I don't know who I were, what I am and who gave my life .. If I were in a totally different life, and someone come to tell me what I'm having wasn't mine originally. I was swapped ! What would my reaction be? What would I do? Would I be who I am right now? Would I believe that my mum, is my mum? After calling someone else Mummy for so long .. Maybe we watched too much of this kinda dramas. But wait, think about it. It does happen in reality doesn't it? Think about what you have now, and imagine it getting swapped. Would you want it swapped?

At times I think. Should I even be in someone's life? Lets make it YOUR LIFE THAT I'M IN ..(for friend's whom I'm already in, IGNORE and think the opposite) we don't know each other, we were acquainted .. Me getting into part of your life. Will i be able to adapt well? How should i cope with the people that were in your past? I dare not face them. I'm afraid. I don't know why (...)

MY KICK WENT OFF (:

it felt like something got into me and made me type all these .. I shan't elaborate more. I don't know how to continue. but those who get what i mean ... You might understand what I'm thinking..